“How we see God is a direct reflection of how we see ourselves. If God brings to mind mostly fear and blame, it means there is too much fear and blame swelled inside us. If we see God as full of Love and compassion, so are we.“*
I release my emotional reactions and heal form within.
As I was contemplating on Rule No1 and today’s Lent affirmation, I realized that I see God as my ultimate support system. I also noticed, how independent, I often think I am, and how untrue that notion is. Every time, I get angry it is because I feel unsupported and overwhelmed. I try to protect myself by being angry with the world that seemingly puts so much pressure on me. It is not true, however. The world does nothing to me, it only reflects my own inner reality back to me.
When I blame the world, I also blame God. Everything is God, even though it is hard to grasp the idea. God’s energy, Its being is waved across the entire tapestry of the universe and beyond. God is All and All is God.
As I was sitting in contemplation working on releasing my frustration and my anger, I realized how vulnerable I am. Without God’s ever flowing Presence and Loving for me, I am but a small mouse in a giant hamster-wheel, running in circles.
As I was releasing my anger, I also started to let go of control. It scares me to know that I cannot control life. Life is gigantic! At the same time, it brings me peace to know that God can. God works though me, supports me with managing whatever shows up in front of me at every moment. I am not grated knowing what the future holds but I am granted the knowing that God is with me.
The God I see beyond my fear and anger is supportive and protective.
