FORGIVENESS

There are days when it is really hard for me to be GRATEFUL. When I am challenged on different levels by my environment so much that I simply cannot find the Divine inside of me. I cannot focus within enough to see the Light beyond my own and others’ disturbance. When the only feeling I can identify is anger, even though I know the underlying emotion is pain, this is when the only ‘dealing with it’ for me is FORGIVENESS.

In the mist of my unbearable anger and frustration, I start changing and then drawing

I FORGIVE YOU FOR CHOOSING THIS EXPERIENCE!

The ‘FORGIVENESS’ is ONLY for me. It is not my job to FORGIVE others. Sometimes, I add:

“Father, please forgive them because they do not know what they do!”

Luke 23:34
A forgiveness drawing

As you can see, sometimes, when I create my GRATITUDE JOURNAL, I am actually expressing FORGIVENESS for the things that disturb me because I cannot find the way inside of me to be GRATEFUL for them.

WHEN I FORGIVE, I RELEASE MY DISTURBENCES caused by my experiences!

WEEKLY GRATITUDE JOURNALING CLASS

This is a fun and practical class. We do a short meditation and listen to songs of Gratefulness as we create a piece of artwork related to what we feel grateful for in that moment.

The class is FREE OF CHARGE, ZOOM link is sent upon registration.

As you can see from this video, creating a Gratitude Journal entry feels like being a child again. We are not creating a piece of artwork that needs to look neat and accomplished. We are creating these pictures because IT IS FUN!

Why is self-awareness and insight so important?

Life is a funny kind of machinery.

Moments come and go, and all we do is react to them depending on how we perceive them. We either like them or we don’t. When we like an event we are happy and joyous, hoping there will be more similar ones to come. When saddening events are upon us, we tend to gloom, complain and wish they would never return.

Interesting we, humans, don’t tend to like or dislike the same things. We are particular in that way. I like or dislike something depending on how I perceive that event which depends on my previous experiences in similar events.

Have you ever noticed that if you concentrated on a certain colour or a type of car for instance, you suddenly start seeing them everywhere around you? That is how attention works. We internally decide – unfortunately mostly unconsciously – what to focus on. And where we focus that is where our attention is held.

As soon as you take your attention away from something it does not exits for you any more. I know that many of us are afraid that as soon as you ‘ignore’ an issue it does not disappear but you just become vulnerably to its effects.

I am not advocating ignorance. I wish to draw your attention to awareness and being present.

Being informed is different from being consumed. When you keep all your attention on something it grows in your consciousness. It is essential that you withdraw from the craze of the outer world and find console inside. Without awareness of the present moment and of your self being in that moment you don’t have choices. Your attention keeps on swinging from one topic to another whatever the world offers you at any moment in time. You are just a puppet in a muppet show.

Maybe, you would also like to know that your life does NOT actually HAPPEN ‘out there in the world’. It is a misconception. The brain cannot differentiate between you physically experiencing or just imagining an event. Your life experiences is therefore the result of your attention and where you direct it.

If your life is full of challenges and uncomfortable experiences then it is time to have a deeper look at where you ‘look’ most of your life – because it is where you are going! If you concentrate on the unfairness and hardship of life, this is exactly what you are going to get because this is where you engage all your energies.

As you become present you also start becoming clear on who you truly are beyond the layers of misconceptions (conditioning) and as a result you will surely realize what it is that make you truly happy. So, you can focus more on these things.

Life tends to cooperate greatly with undivided attention. So, why don’t you focus on your greatness and happiness instead of investing your energy in the gloom and doom of life?

More importantly, you could concentrate on the cup half full and ask yourself:

who am I and how can I experience my greatness?

Making a journey into your self offers great discoveries and enlightening insights! Finding your answer to the questions above can be a life altering experience.

(originally posted in April 2020)

“A self evident truth is that people who have a clear understanding of themselves enjoy more successful careers and better lives.”

Tasha Eurich, organisational psychologist

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STARTS ON 26 JUNE 2021

Benefits

  • Gain deeper awareness of yourself – your thoughts and behavioural patterns that may or may not be supporting you in living the life you wish for yourself.
  • Become aware of your strengths, unique abilities, and your true interests, as well as some of your hindering patterns.
  • Discover your Essence – the core of who you are. Building on that, we enquire about your passion, purpose and true vocation.
  • Step towards your dreams using the supportive power of the group.
  • HAVE OODLES OF FUN!

Hoppárézimi :)

Nem emlékszem, hogy hogyan szereztem tudomast a könyvről, de amint megjelent, megvettem es elolvastam. Többször is. Végtelenül inspirálónak találtam és ugyanakkor könnyeket fakasztóan mulatságosnak is Zemplényi Zoli történetét. Valahogy az egész életem más fénybe került általa. Hirtelen megértettem, hogy csak egy nyavajgó tini vagyok, akinek az élete unalmas és kényelmes. Életem kihívásai eltörpültek, és minden hisztim ellenére megértettem, hogy azon kivűl, hogy három tanár pikkel rám és anyám nem érti, hogy szerelmes vagyok, az életem kényelmes és tartalmatlan. Míg én azon tűnődik, hogy mit vegyek fel, mások az életükért küzdenek, vagy azért, hogy újra tólószék nélkül közlekedhessenek. A történet megértette velem, hogy az élet valahol, nagyon máshol van. Persze, akkor még csak éreztem, nem értettem mi történik. Ma azt gondolom, hogy Hoppárézimi története hozzá járult ahhoz, hogy élményekkel és kihivásokkal teli életet válasszak. Zemplényi kitartása, akarat ereje és humora biztositott arról, hogy nem csak túlélhetőek az élet adta pofonok, de mulatságosak is!

Renunciation

I surrender all personal plans to Spirit.

“It’s not always easy to understand that we are not being punished by God, when things go horribly wrong. We have to let go of any idea that we are something separate from God. We have to release any thought that we are somehow undeserving of God’s love. We have to cleanse our consciousness, purify our thoughts to reflect that we are the Beloved of God, that the Light of God is always within.”

Fillmore writes

“There must be a renunciation or letting go of old thoughts before the new can find place in the consciousness.” 

Charles Fillmore

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5 minutes on Life

“Life is like a box a chocolate, you never know what your going to get.”

Forrest Gump

In my experience, meaningful Life is about a personal evolution and a learning curve in which one needs to unlearn what is untrue and learn the truth about one’s true identity.

I think Life is very different for us all even though the aim is the very same. We all walk an individualized journey with one sole purpose, that is to become one with the Father.

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Originality

AUDIO VERSION OF THE TEXT BELOW

What does it mean to be ORIGINAL and how to live it? As I child I remember having an odd effect on other children that made them run away from me. Most of my classmates and teachers did not like me very much. Apparently, I was too intense to be around.

There was only a handful of kids who were willing to play with me. Most of them are still my friends today. We were never a gang or a group but we spent time with each other during breaks or after school, mostly one on one. 🙂

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Dream vs Experience

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In Pixar Animation Studios’ feature film “Soul,” Joe Gardner is a middle-school band teacher whose true passion is playing jazz. A single unexpected step sends him to the cosmic realms where he finds the “You Seminar”—a fantastical place where Joe is forced to think again about what it truly means to have soul.

In Pixar Animation Studios’ feature film “Soul,” Joe Gardner is a middle-school band teacher whose true passion is playing jazz. A single unexpected step sends him to the cosmic realms where he finds the “You Seminar”—a fantastical place where Joe is forced to think again about what it truly means to have soul.

So, I watched the film.. (Must see, by the way!) In my understanding, the film depicts the Soul’s journey into and out of the physical realm as well as shows the kind of choices we make to experience the soul’s journey. Beyond all that, it personally talked to me about Passions and dream. I am not sure that my interstation is what the makers intended. Nevertheless, it made me contemplate on Life, Dreams, Passions, Fulfilment, and the Greater Journey called Life.

This animation reminded me that Life is not meant to be about pursuing dreams and passions but about experiencing the journey. Our Dreams are only signpost of what maybe or what’s possible.

I do not want to suggest that we float though life. I am talking about releasing attachment of what should be. Wishing to express and fully be present to the I AM within is not the same as pursuing a dream.

The Divine Spark within wants to express itself with the help of our EGO self. Often, however, the EGO self takes over and wants to run the show. And when it does, it is never satisfied. Nothing is ever enough. This is when life becomes an endless pursuit of happiness.

Personally, the film was a powerful reminder of how I waste my life away by constantly being fixated on something to ‘get’. My mind is endlessly occupied with what needs to be done. It is locked in the grip of ‘wanting’ and ‘needing’ until it gets what it desires.

In the film, there is a moment when the main character, Joe, says after his most precious dream has just come true: ’ Is that it’?

OMG, countless times have I experienced the same! As soon as I get what I so wanted, it dissipates and in the vacuum immediately a new dream pops up. I can pursue dreams until the cows come home because I have the stamina to do so. I have manifested most of my crazy ideas but sadly in the meantime I have mostly forgotten to just walk the journey. I can be so fixed on the end result that I forget that the journey, the way I get there is much more important than what I get at the end of it.

We are all hooked on a dream or a goal that keeps us busy until we reach. But as soon as we do, we are on to the next dream without noticing the journey, the living, the I AM. Maybe, it is time to stop and remember these great quotes from the film:

Life is full of possibilities. You just need to know where to look. Don’t miss out on the joys of life. Like, uh, Pizza… Get ready, your life is about to start!

Joe Gardner (SOUL)

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The Art of Digging :)

Gardening is my new Mojo! It is my latest therapy! I would have never thought that weeding can be so much fun. 🙂

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I thoroughly enjoy kneading the earth as I am sieving the weeds out of it. It does actually feel much like the preparation stage of baking. But the true reason why I am so keen on digging the soil is that it reminds me of my childhood, the fun time I had in the sand box. I used to love spending hours making sand castles or cooking sand food.

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COVID Mind-Game

What you put into your mind becomes your reality.

Yesterday, I realized that there is a side affect of the COVID craze that I had not see before.

I was having a heated argument for-and-against vaccination and we were sharing about what we think and how we feel about the virus itself and the situation that surrounds it. I shared with vehemence how silly I tfound this overblown fear that surrounds COVID. Then, suddenly, I got in my face someone’s hands-on experience with colleagues and friends suffering from COVID, the difficulties dealing with it and recovering form it. I understood from this sharing how some young and healthy people become utterly ill and as a result feared dying.

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How it all started?

MY JOURNEY

Well … when I was a child, I was told that I was odd because I had ‘strange’ ideas that nobody could seemingly understand. Plus, I lived in a rather grey environment called socialistic communism where colourlessness was the norm and you were expected to conform. Well, I was not one who easily left a question unanswered, though.

(Read a personal story about my childhood below)

So, I decided early on that if the world around me is too scared to answer my bold questions I would go and find my own answers myself. And so I was off. I left home, then I left the city, finally, I left the country in search of answers.

The most surprising discovery I made over the years was that our answers to any existential question is answered within our own selves. I spent much time reading clever books and looking for someone to answer my queries until I realised that the only question I was truly searching an answer for was ‘who am I?’ Finding the answer to this very basic question opened up the whole world to me. It is sometimes too big to bear!

Knowing myself, my true values, inherent abilities and what I stand for as a human being gave me complete freedom in choosing my experiences.

I do not live the perfect life. I do not believe it exists. I live a life of insights and discoveries. It is a magical world both inside and out. I am still a ‘girl in progress’.  🙂 

My main focus in life is to find the most fulfilling ways to express my multifaceted being.

One such layer is my caring nature that wants me to support others to gain insights into their own extraordinary being.

How about you? What is your story?